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Sunday, August 18, 2002
This is what happens when I get my hopes up... In a 'plot twist' that is disappointing, yet unfortunately predictable... things in Syracuse did not turn out as planned. I didn't want to mention anything that happened just in case the person somehow had come across my site. But at this point I don't much care... and so I'll let you in on the story. Last Saturday I went to Syracuse with Rodney, Mike, and Josh. I had a blast. And like just about every Saturday that I have gone out in Syracuse, I noticed this really handsome guy at RAIN. Tall, blonde... I don't really know how to describe it, just sort of down-to-earth handsome. So of course my low self-esteem kicks in and I think that he's completely out of my league and I would never approach him. But... about two months ago, I had decided I would try to catch his attention. I got some eye contact. That was plenty for me, I went home happy. So, for the last few months I had been traveling and super busy... and hadn't made it out to Syracuse. Last weekend with the boys was my first time back. Strangely enough, when I saw 'Handsome Guy' he got a big smile on his face... and then later in the evening we had some great eye contact. So I asked Josh, who was sitting beside him at the bar... to exchange seats with me... and he did. Now I was sitting next to 'Handsome Guy.' To my surprise, a few minutes later, 'Handsome Guy' said to the bartender, 'And get whatever he wants,' and placed his hand on the bar in front of me. I accepted the drink. So I turn to him... (and I am trying to rely on my memory of the conversation at this point, hopefully I'll get the gyst of it)... I said, 'Hey, thanks for the drink.' He says, 'Sure thing. You're Shane or Shawn right?' So I'm completely surprised that he knows my name and sort of shell-shocked I say, 'Yes, Shane. What's yours?' He tells me and then quickly turns his back to me. So, probably because I'm buzzed and not thinking appropriately... I turn to him and say, 'I'm glad we've introduced ourselves. I always kick myself for leaving and not saying hi.' To which he says, 'I'll tell you something funny. I already know a few things about you. I know that you work for a design agency and I know that you don't have a car. And I've noticed that you've been missing in action for the last two months.' There was some confusing banter and then he says, 'I'll let you ponder that for a little while.' Again, he quickly turns around as if to end the conversation. Then he gets up and walks off. So now I'm really thrown for a loop. After a while, we all decide that we're going over to TREXX, and so I go up to 'Handsome Guy,' shake his hand, and say, "Well it was nice to meet you, even though I have no idea how you know all this stuff about me.' He says, 'Do you want to hear something scary?' And I say, 'I dunno.' And he says, 'I'll tell you anyway. I have two pictures of you on my desk.' (He could have said desktop, as in computer desktop, I dunno for sure, but he clearly said he had two pictures of me.) So my eyes probably squinted in confusion and all I could say was, 'Why!?' He said, 'I'll tell you next week' and turned around as if to punctuate the sentence. So that was it. And of course my mind was racing... How could he have known that stuff about me? And what are these pictures for godsakes!? Could they be the pics that are going around the internet of me... the... uhm... personal ones? Or just innocent ones that might have been taken of me at Rain by the roving photographer? Or just the ones that you see on this Web site? I (still) have no clue. So, understandably... I didn't want to type anything out about that whole interaction just in case he had gotten his information about me from this Web site. (I didn't want him to read about the whole thing.) But then I sort of came to the conclusion that if he DID read this site, he'd know a hell of a lot more about me than those two things. *shrug* Ok... so back to the story... I ended up going to Syracuse last night with Jacques... and the closer we got to Syracuse the more excited I was getting about finding out the next part of the story... the 'I'll tell you next week' part. I still had no idea what this guy's motives could have been for saying all that, but I was intrigued and I tried to convince myself it was for a GOOD reason instead of someone just fucking with my head. For the most part, I just played pool and darts and talked with friends and acquaintances... but by the time Jacques and I left... there was still no 'Handsome Guy.' And he is normally at the bar by the time we leave. So I'm sort of left with this really disappointed feeling... And I still dunno what to make of it all... A guy that I was interested in... says all this stuff to me, then essentially says 'We'll continue this conversation next week' and then doesn't show up. *shrug* I feel like I'm living in a bizarro episode of 'Unsolved Mysteries.' | private feedback | |
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